Yesterday I had to have my hedgehog Sayla put to sleep. She was so sick. Her tumor had gotten so big and he body was cold, she wasn't eating any more. She was in so much pain that I just could take it anymore. I knew I was being selfish trying to keep her alive. So I took her to the vet and had them give her a peaceful death. Tomorrow I'm burring her at Quentin's Mom's house, since she has so many beautiful flowers. I'll put a few of her favorite things in the box with her.

*sigh* I haven't felt this sad about a pet in nine years. It's so hard. I keep doubting myself. All can do now is remember all of the good times. One thing I can say is I'm not getting another pet for a while. It will just be my dog Sophie, my two mice Togepi and Sweetcoon, and my fish. No more for a long time. I can't take it.